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Aug. 2nd, 2002 03:19 pmWell, fetchmail's decided to run as a daemon proc on noblerone again. This is a happy thing but means I get more email which I probably won't have time or the inclination to answer. Which will probably wind up making me feel guilt to a ridiculous proportion over and above the things I haven't done.
I've been spending all this week doing many hours of overtime which I should probably not have done seeing as its been fairly detrimental to my study. I have a test next week as well which I'm not sure if I'm going to pass... re-enrolment's coming up as well for next year, I need to submit my 'R' form, amazingly there were some in Student Admin.
It would be nice to score someone to talk to every now and then who has some kind of binding arrangement not to talk to anyone else about matters they discuss with you. But psychiatrists are expensive ("You're different, and thats bad.").
Consequently I'm about to go into a deserted area and scream my head off about things and rail at the world about all the things I think are 'wrong' which have happened to me.
Why is it that I only write these long contemplative journal entries when I'm feeling bad and introspective? I guess my title for this thing is pretty apt.
Or then again whenver I feel that compulsion I could go and play "Pop goes the Hamster!" and other microwavable games. Or I could take happy drugs, they fix things completely for very short periods of time.
In other news the real reason why I'm making a journal entry for the first time in a long time is becasue I finally have a machine where I can run a client which does everything neatly (yes, this is a new laptop reference).
Here's a question; what exactly does Olestra do? Its some kind of non-hydrolysing fat I'm given to understand...
Why does Pyridoxine (vit b6) give you so much short-term energy?
Why is codiene sometimes classes as a cough reflex inhibitor? Why does my mother advise that I take it in order to make myself sleep?
Thats another annoyance, I haven't been sleeping lately, except for the sleeping tablets. And becasue of you, the cuddles help me immensely. If I manage to work myself back into normality at some point I'll let people in my immediate vicinity know, they'll probably have to get out of my way.
Other than that, I'm fine, and as long as this entry is public enough, thats why I don't need a psychiatrist.
I've been spending all this week doing many hours of overtime which I should probably not have done seeing as its been fairly detrimental to my study. I have a test next week as well which I'm not sure if I'm going to pass... re-enrolment's coming up as well for next year, I need to submit my 'R' form, amazingly there were some in Student Admin.
It would be nice to score someone to talk to every now and then who has some kind of binding arrangement not to talk to anyone else about matters they discuss with you. But psychiatrists are expensive ("You're different, and thats bad.").
Consequently I'm about to go into a deserted area and scream my head off about things and rail at the world about all the things I think are 'wrong' which have happened to me.
Why is it that I only write these long contemplative journal entries when I'm feeling bad and introspective? I guess my title for this thing is pretty apt.
Or then again whenver I feel that compulsion I could go and play "Pop goes the Hamster!" and other microwavable games. Or I could take happy drugs, they fix things completely for very short periods of time.
In other news the real reason why I'm making a journal entry for the first time in a long time is becasue I finally have a machine where I can run a client which does everything neatly (yes, this is a new laptop reference).
Here's a question; what exactly does Olestra do? Its some kind of non-hydrolysing fat I'm given to understand...
Why does Pyridoxine (vit b6) give you so much short-term energy?
Why is codiene sometimes classes as a cough reflex inhibitor? Why does my mother advise that I take it in order to make myself sleep?
Thats another annoyance, I haven't been sleeping lately, except for the sleeping tablets. And becasue of you, the cuddles help me immensely. If I manage to work myself back into normality at some point I'll let people in my immediate vicinity know, they'll probably have to get out of my way.
Other than that, I'm fine, and as long as this entry is public enough, thats why I don't need a psychiatrist.
